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Alright confess [22 Jan 2006|10:05am]

[ mood | silly ]

What Does your underwear say about you???

What Your Underwear Says About You

You tend to buy new underwear instead of doing laundry.

You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.
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Today Sucks [17 Jan 2006|01:57pm]

[ mood | blank ]

I was suppose to go to the neurologist but basically Brandon didn't want to go to work an hour early so I could go. I had to reschedule and I don't really know why but I was so frustrated with him over that. I was slamming and throwing stuff around. Basically throwing a fit. Maybe its just because I didn't get my way. I don't think so though, because I didn't really want to go in the first place. Brandon got all upset and said "you just want to be angry." I don't blame him. He is right. I can be pretty difficult and childish sometimes. But then ofcourse he wants to say that its ok and he knows I act like that because of my "diagnosis". I hate that so much. Not everything I say and do is because I am bipolar. And he won't even say the word - bipolar. He always says diagnosis. Like its terrible, like cancer or something. He has depression, anxiety and he is OCD. We are quite the pair :)

Doug is doing better but has been sleeping more than he usually does. Lastnight he woke up and was in a great mood and wanted to play, so I'm not sure whats going on with him.
Shiloh is being attacked by the cat. As usual.

No news is good news on the court case.

I'm just doing laundry. Bored to death. I want to take a nap but I can't because Shiloh never naps. She is only 4, I can't leave her up by herself. Honestly I can't wait untill she starts school. But the wicked witch won't send me her shot records so she can get updated at her new doc to get into school. So I have to call the doc in MI and see if they will send them to the new one. Blah Blah

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Ongoing food/exercising Update [16 Jan 2006|11:50am]

[ mood | energetic ]

Almost 12 noon: I haven't eaten yet but I am going to work out. For just 20 minutes. Just so I can move on with the rest of my day.

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Just an Ordinary Morning [16 Jan 2006|11:18am]

[ mood | dorky ]

I got up today and I don't know what is going on with Brandon. He has been pretty pissy and short with the kids so far. Hopefully he will be in a better mood when he gets home. I don't know what his problem is, he got some last night. lol

Doug is doing better. His diaper rash is still pretty red on his thighs, but getting better. I've been letting him air out and have been putting Desitin Creamy on when I do make him wear a diaper.

Shiloh wants to go play in the snow and I keep trying to tell her that its gone. But she still wants to go make a snow man. She can't be my daughter. She loves snow too much!

I have to go to Flagstaff to see the neurologist tomorrow. BARF!! Fricking 2 hour trip one way for them to tell me once again that the headaches are part of my borderline personality trying to shine through. She will give me some Imitrex that will screw with my serotonin and send me on my way. Again, barf!
Plus I hate going that far by myself, but I'm going to have to because Bran has to work.

In other unrelated news...I think as part of my why to keep me on my toes about my eating habits and dieting is to be honest about what I do and eat everyday. So hopefully I can get to a healthy weight that I am comfortable with and then stop obsessing about it. And if I could do it without my nasty habits maybe I won't feel like I have to do them any more. Ugh. I hate giving up nasty habits.

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Snow!! [15 Jan 2006|08:25pm]

[ mood | grumpy ]

Its snowing here for the first time all winter!! I can't believe it. I hate snow!!

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Jeez Louise [15 Jan 2006|08:23pm]

[ mood | stressed ]

Well, well I do not know where to begin today. First off yesterday I took Shiloh and Doug out to eat for lunch. The place was packed. Before we got order our food Shiloh had to go potty. We got up to go and Doug puked all over the restaurant, me and Shiloh. We went to the rest room and got all cleaned up. While we were waiting for our food my "buddy" came in for just a second and I waved to him but I don't think he saw me so I'm not obsessing over it. It took no less than 2 hours for us to get 2 grilled cheeses with fries and 2 chocolate milks and an ice tea for me. I am not even kidding. Then to top the whole wonderful experience off, I get the check and it is $19.41!! I could not believe it. I didn't have enough money on me so I just about had a panic attack right there. Thankfully one of my friends was there and I was able to borrow $5 from them. What a nightmare.

Meanwhile Brandon was out trying to get our motor home ready to sell and he had called and said he was going to send his brother over to get them something to drink. 3 hours go by and I hear nothing from them. I knew the other day they had been dumping gas in the carburetor to get it started (jackasses). I thought for sure that they had done that again and they had both blown up. I was freaking out!! I called my mother-in-law and asked her if she had heard anything and I told her what I thought they were doing. She called Brandon to see what was going on and he called me to let me know he was ok. I yelled at him for scaring me like that and then broke down and cried like a little baby. For the rest of the day I was so emotional. I just kept breaking down and crying over nothing all day. I don't know if its because I might be getting my period soon or if its the Lamictal. I am on 75mg now. Will start 100mg on Monday I think.

Doug has horrible diaper rash. That with the fact that he puked yesterday and he has had nasty diapers lately, I think he is allergic to the store brand kool-aid. We got sugar free because Shiloh is out of control on sugar and I think it might be whatever they use to substitute the sugar. Ugh.

In court news, the judge granted Art (Doug's "father") the extension to continue on the inactive calendar. I know a lot of people who don't know the whole story think that he deserves visitation because he is his biological father but I have my own reasons why I just want him to stay away.

I'll probably find something else to dramatize later. Maybe share the Art story if I feel like getting angry. :)

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Welcome [14 Jan 2006|09:05am]

[ mood | hopeful ]

This is the first day that this commmunity has been opened. I hope to meet a lot of great people here for support and maybe read some poetry or just talk about music we like. I won't be posting much here until we get some more users. Take care! Hope you find support and friends here too!

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